I have to admit, I am the greatest!

I am the greatest project starter in the world!  As this blog shows I am also the greatest procrastinator!  My original plan in starting this blog was to get me out of my funk and share a bit more than I felt I could on my other blog!  Not name names so much!  My JOTB suggested that I use this blog to do like Julie and Julia and make all the sewing projects out of a book that I had just bought.  That was an awesome idea, but instead of making the projects I just started buying up the books because I loved looking at them so much---Project starter procrastination at its best!

So I am going to try to do projects out of my new stack of sewing books and showcase them here.  I am sure I will have a few posts that are me rattling on and on, but to know me is to love me!

This is my latest project, a duvet cover.  My daughter was headed back to college and so I thought what a better print than pirates!  I t was a fun project, had I stuck with the directions in the first place rather than gone off on my own, it might have been even more fun!  I finished it just days before we took her back and it looked great in her room!  I should do a pillowcase to match and I also said I would do a remote holder for the side of her bed to hold her glasses and such.  Here's to getting that done!

Whatevs

A few weeks ago I had a blog address sent to me to check out.  I went to the blog and read the meanest things. The person was putting themselves on a pedestal while trashing all these other people, and not just little digs either.  I am a judgmental person, I acknowledge that and at times I embrace it, but this was horrible.  As I explained the difference to a friend who also checked out the blog, we decided that I am a light hearted judger not harsh and mean.  I am friends with some of the people that blogger was so horrible about and I was pissed!  I thought of all the things that I should do to show her how awful she is.  I gave it about a day and then realized how sad that person is and now I try harder to be a better person and friend every time I think about her.  So while she will live the rest of her life miserable and mean, I will be taking something from her grumpiness and become a better person.  Maybe eventually I can put myself on a pedestal and look down on the rest of the crowd....naw, I think I like the view from the ground!

Another incident occurred in the last few days.  I was telling a friend about a conversation with a lady at church, I was telling church lady about a girl that is less active and what I thought would help.  The lady treated me like I was an idiot and talked down to me like I was stupid.  She doesn't know the girl, I barely know the girl but I left frustrated (which is not the first time that I have talked to her and felt that way after, neither is it the second...or third for that matter).  Anyway I was relaying this story about frustrating church lady to  friend and she said something to the effect of don't waste your time on her she is never coming back to church because of blah, blah, blah.   I was shocked, I happen to know that friend has dealt with similar problems and come back to Church.  I hate it when people don't remember where they came from!  That is one of my biggest pet peeves.  I have a Brother in Law (not one any of you probably know) that was quite the wild guy.  It was all before I met him but I have heard the stories.  He is a church goer know but would be the first one to condemn another for the same stuff that he went through.  AHHHHH!!!  

I hope to never be the condemn-er, I guess it is just another thing to think about, be aware of, and improve upon.  so that is just what I will do!

Just sitting

I am just sitting here trying to find an excuse to put off going out running! It isn't a long run today, in fact it is rather short, I don't know what my problem is.  I am a bit sore from running and hiking this week but not that sore.  It is just a matter of me getting dressed and heading out.  I even slept until almost 10 this morning!  Could it be that because everyone else in the house is still asleep I think I deserve to be too?  ( one worked last night, one is sick and the last one is a teenage boy).

This is my favorite picture from the hike we went on yesterday.

It was a fun time and all 3 boys loved throwing rocks in the creeks and getting dirty climbing and writing in the dirt.  I love this because my "cool" teenager is so sweet to the little kids!

He was an awesome help and I don't think the hike would have turned out well at all if he hadn't gone!

Well, while I waited for that picture to download I got my gear on to go run.  

I am one step closer.

Now to open the door and walk out!

Frustrations!!!

I think that running is making me fatter!  It doesn't seem possible but I think it is true!  My pants all feel tight.  I feel good and most the time I feel like I am down (weight wise) but I am pretty sure I am chub a lub lubbing it!  Oh well, I can't stop now, at least I will be a fat runner, maybe when I hit 300 pounds I will be in marathon condition!  BRIGHT SIDE!!!

I am also amazed at how no matter if I work or have a day off I am still the one expected to do most of the work in the house.  I got home at 4:15 yesterday, let everyone know that I felt like I was getting sick, went running at 4:30, and guess who was the lucky one able to cook dinner.  My husband was off yesterday, daughter was off yesterday and my son knew I was working and dad wasn't so he called home "sick" from school.   Got it done!

Then today I didn't have to go to work until 6:30 p.m., husband was off, daughter was off, son made it through a whole day at school.  Guess who got to do laundry all by herself (except for daughter helping fold a load)? yep, that would be me!  I also got to nag about getting dishes done both yesterday and again today and was once again the lucky one that got to cook dinner without even an offer to help!  I went to work, husband did help me set up nets there and came to pick me up at 9 let me know that son was in bed and daughter was out with a friend and I come home to son watching a move in in MY bed and still awake at almost 10!  WTF!  I seriously needed to write those instructions out?  Oh, while I was cooking dinner the rest of the family got to go out and throw around the football.

I am working tomorrow morning and then again tomorrow evening.  Do I need to wonder who is going to finish the laundry or clean the bathrooms?  I think not.  Sometimes I really don't mind playing the part of the martyr, today it just pissed me off!  I don't know how many times in the last few weeks I have given the "If you see something that needs done then just do it" lecture.  I know it has to be quite a few times because I am getting so tired of it.  I went on a vacation a month ago and I need another already, one that includes a massage/spa package!

Surprises Everywhere!

Surprise!  I am a procrastinator.  Really nothing new (My sisters date to one of her high school formals would totally agree since he had to wait for me to finish her dress one year...oops!).  I have actually thought a few times that I need to blog, it helps me clear my mind and then I don't dwell on what I should be doing and just get things done, sometimes I get it done just so I can blog about it!

This coming Monday Will be a month since I started running.  I love it! I love feeling my body work, not so much the struggling for breath, but feeling the stretch and the burn.  I love pushing past what I thought I could do.  There are a lot of times, I could safely say most every time, that I have to talk myself into hitting my goal but I can usually go a bit further even without having to chant words of encouragement to myself.  I get to run with My husband or one of my kids at least once a week and that is always a plus, because you cant fight if you are out of breath, usually I am the only one out of breath.  I also sleep better at night knowing I have exercised, or maybe more like because I have exercised.

I have a super coach.  My Dad was once the record holder for the mile at our local stadium, he has spent the last few years with some rough health problems.  I am not sure that coaching me was what he really wanted to do but it got me going and now while I am "training" he and sister #1 walk the track which is great for them both and makes me accountable and also gives me a few cheerleaders!  I am working on a mile right now.  I haven't run an actual mile since 7th grade, so it will be quite the day when I actually get there.
A mile is 4 times around the track so the first time I went/go as far as I can with out being too winded AKA sucking air!  Each time I need to go farther than the last and then run it all out on the last lap, it ends up being about half a mile running and half a mile walking, with a cool down lap at the end.

Today I ran around the track all the way plus 100 yards the first run, walked 100, ran 300 yards, walked 300 yards and then ran a lap!  I was sucking air but I was so happy for myself, it was awesome.  When I stopped after the final lap I asked Jaide to get my water she said all she got from my incoherent mumbling was "water".

So today I am full of surprises and so proud of myself!

The bag

This is the bag I made for a girl from church.

I stayed pretty calm even when I thought I was smarter than the pattern and had to redo a few seams.

It was fun, fairly simple and I have 2 more that I need to get finished.

I guess that makes 2 projects that I have all the stuff for.

One Day...

~One day I am actually going to figure out why my printer won't always take my camera card.
~One day I am going to deep clean my house.
~One day I am going to finish college.
~One day I am going to take out all the dead plants out of my garden.
~One day I am going to seriously buy all the supplies I need to finish a few sewing projects.
~One day I will actually make the curtains for my kitchen.
~One day I will rearrange all my closets so that I can turn one into a pantry.
~One day my son will actually learn the importance of good grades.
~One day (hopefully soon) I will go 24 hours with no yelling at my house.
~One day I will learn to play the Banjo.
~One day I will have a conversation with one of my children and they will realize when I tell them to get a job or do homework that I am not being mean.
~One day I will learn to knit.
~One day I will have the perfect day and actually realize and acknowledge it.

One day.......

Todays blabber

I am tired.  Not because of any one thing in particular.  I am just tired.  I have been working out for a week, I have gone a whole week.  That is good I am angry at myself that I got back out of shape after I was doing so good, and my sore muscles and tight clothes only make me more mad.  But I am doing something about it and that is a good thing.  I am also reading the book 'The Help'  it is killer had to put down at night so I am almost asleep before I finally do.  Then I have my addiction to caffeine and the DS.  I need to go to bed so much earlier.When my husband and I first started dating I had been a go to bed by 10 kinda girl.  That hasn't ever happened consistently since then.  I blame him!

I may have a side job of doing some alterations, I don't normally do alterations (which is the reason my sister gets all the hand me overs) but, I decided to give it a try, I was given a pair of baseball pants that needed shortened and got that done yesterday the coach is taking them to show the head coach and I may have myself a bit of a job.  I thought it was just for the coaching staff, turns out it is for the whole team and staff!
That should keep me busy!

So good things are happening and hopefully they are outweighing the bad.  I will keep my fingers crossed!

Okay, so I am a slacker

So many good things have happened lately, I think it is because I am looking for them, but either way I'll take it!  I started my six week challenge on Wednesday, I hurt to get up and down until this morning and I can handle the movement a bit better now. 

A neighbor that I am not particularly fond of (not the hillybillies) moved!  I heard it was happening but didn't believe it until I got visual confirmation.  Friday night I didn't ever go to sleep.  I know WTF?  I thought the same thing but I did have a late dose of caffeine and a new DS game to help in the sleeplessness.  I went to a RS meeting/breakfast, I went to get info which didn't pan out so I had wished I didn't go.  But I did come home and take a 2.5 hour nap and hey, naps when you are totally exhausted are the best! 

I had a great time in my class at church, I teach the 5 year olds and I learn some great things!  We acted out the Iron Rod/Tree of life story and I said "Remember, the Iron Rod is the word of God and the Tree of life is God's love."  On the Tree of Life I had taped Tootsie Rolls so I added, "And so that would make God's love, Tootsie Rolls"  I chuckled, but the 5 year olds were munching down on Tootsie Rolls, I have noticed some of my best lines are wasted on preschoolers and 5 year olds.  But I do enjoy my class which is good since I wasn't so fond of my last one!

When I got home I got to chat with my friend in Chicago and fill her in on her fathers shenanigans, we got a to have a good chuckle I always love chatting with my girls!  I then took a 3 hour nap, my husband made dinner and I got to watch the Golden Globes, I love Ricky Gervas (not enough to actually know how to spell his name though)  I didn't think he was as good as last year but they probably made him tone it down a bit!  If I could have gone shopping it would have been a perfect day, oh wait there was an extra 40%  off of sale items at J Crew online, so I got myself a little something.  (maybe 2 little somethings but both plus tax and shipping was still $22 cheaper than buying one full price! 

Thanks Bree

My son woke up without an alarm and got ready without me nagging him!  It was a miracle, I hope it lasts and I will try to just plan on it lasting, I just have the little guy in my head (he looks similar to the Despicable Me minions) saying "girl, you know better". 

When I got up this morning I was doing my usual morning time waste on facebook, I had an inbox message from my sisters roommate, Bree.  Telling me about a half marathon that she was doing along with a 5K, I love 5Ks, I have ran in many of them but I have never ran a 5K.  As of late I have become quite a fat ars so as I sat here dreaming of running the race I talked myself in to working out this morning.  I did 20 minutes on the wii active and have a 6 week challenge started on it.  I also have a hamstring cramp from putting the leg band on too tight.  I have been drinking so much water that I have decided that I need to finish remodeling my bathroom and it really needs a new paint job.

I have to leave shortly to pick up my son from after school detention that he received from the gum chewing incident talked about in a previous post. 

Not quite Sure of my New Bandwagon

I think since I started my blog that I do look for the positive more.  I have to find things to blog about!  Today I got an awesome deal on a Loft Bed for my son.  I feel like we are busting out of the seams in our little house (1,079 sq. ft.) so when my husband and sister suggested we check into the price I reluctantly agreed.  I don't have alot of money to be tossing around right now, especially since we just got the reminder call that our cellphone bill is past due!  The bed was $50, the box was damaged and eventually we ended up with all the pieces and the instructions.  My sister, son and husband are putting it together as I type!  I found this same bed on walmart.com for $149.00.

Awesome!  We already have gotten rid of his old bed and our big brown blob thingy!  I am feeling so much roomier, now if I can just get his room clean and keep it that way!  I think I am shooting way past the stars and into the next galaxy but look at me I am at least trying to dream or maybe I am just trying too hard!

Friday

I started out the day bummed after my stressful Thursday.  I had to get up and let the dog out and back in and then I went and laid down and wallowed for awhile.  I was pouting about not having my job and whatever else I could think of and finally decided to pull myself out of my pity parade (thought that sounded more fun than party) I called for my dog and usually she runs right in, I waited and tried again and then started to worry a bit because she seriously runs to you hoping for attention as soon as her name is called.  I walked into the living room and she had gotten herself stuck in the window sill.  It was hilarious!  The couch had been moved for the Christmas tree and she likes to sit on the back of it, in the window.  Well, she had got up there from the arm of the couch and then walked down to far and couldn't get back to the couch and was a nervous wreck when I got there to save her.  I am sure feeling like she might be missing out on something didn't help either!

I went and visited my old job and the kids surrounded me with hugs and told me how much they missed me!  I miss them terribly.  The gals and I got to chat it up as we were working and had to catch up on almost 6 weeks of missing each other.  It was nice.  Though I had a horrible headache until I met up with my friend Diet Dr. Pepper.  I had missed him too!

We went to my nephews new house and had dinner, played games and made tie dye shirts!  His son who is usually fairly quiet around us was wild and so much fun!  We could have stayed for a week and just played! 

I also made a scripture bag for a little girl in our ward who is getting baptized today, I took pictures and will hopefully get them on! 

Still Trying or Being Tried

As I sit down this morning I do so very unwillingly.  I am totally pushing myself to keep this up and it is only day 2.  I had a bit of a trying day yesterday, I had to go grocery shopping...(dots indicate the dum, dum, dum music)  I got home late by about 5 minutes and my middle school son was already home "shuffling" around the front yard, I tossed him the keys to unlock the door and as I was on my way up with the first load of groceries I noticed dog poop shoe print on the porch.  I screamed for son to stop and get out of the house and then we proceeded to have an argument about how it couldn't have been him.  What?  There was poop marks right under his shoe, he then said, "I think I would know if I stepped in dog crap"  Really?  You were the one walking around the yard when I got here the same yard that the dog uses for her latrine  and has for the past 3 years?  The response I got was I wasn't walking I was doing this (shuffling action).  It did end with him cleaning up the (not so) mysterious mess off the carpet.

About 15 minutes later I get an insubordination paper that he had to have a parent sign so he could take it back today.  After a screaming poop match you didn't think that this would be the time to start forging your parents signature?  I would have been like okay, time to learn how to write dad's signature.....  Apparently there is a no gum chewing rule at the Middle School, we had a previous discussion of this rule because of a conversation with a classmates mother.  He was asked to spit his gum out, did so and then on his way back to his desk put another piece in.   ARGH!!!

We even had another incident after his piano lessons and he said he wished I would just leave so I did, and this is where I found the positive part.  The jeans I love were on sale at the mall, they are just the right length and have enough stretch in them that I can wear a size smaller than normal and still feel comfy.  Thank You Maurice brand jeans.  I also walked past the Hallmark store and noticed the 75% off Christmas and got some ornaments for next year the fancy Hallmark ones and I now want to go back and get more.  I will single handedly help our economy get back on its feet!

Here's to another day!

Just Getting Started

I have decided to start a whatever I want blog.  I have decided to try my best to be a bit more optimistic this year, more of a glass half full kinda girl.  I am mostly a glass half empty type of person at least after the last 5 or so months of stress, therefore my blog title cynically optimistic.

I feel like I really do try to look at the positive but it mostly goes something like this, well I will use our flight home from Christmas.  My husband was able to go after the kiddos and I had our tickets and so our flights back were on different airlines with different layover cities.  I can stress myself out fairly easy so I kept telling myself this will be easy (I was flying into an airport I don't know well) we will just get to our next gate wait our hour and then be on a plane home.  This is what actually happened, we wait almost our lay over hour when an announcer says our plane is cancelled and we need to go to customer service and find a new flight and then 2 stand by disappointments and 7 hours later we are on our way home.  I had a very upset teenage son after the second missed stand by, I had been doing my best at trying to crush his dreams of getting on the flight we were 6,7,&8 in line for stand by.  There was no chance on an already booked flight, poor guy was seeing the glass half full even though his mom was trying to show him how empty the glass was!

I also lost my job in November, it was seriously the best job ever!  I loved the ladies I worked with and we all understood each other and had it all down, we knew what needed to be done and got it done!  It was awesome.  So now that holidays are over and I should be back to work, I am not and I feel sad about missing out on that.  Getting paid to do what you love with awesome people....well when you lose that it is a huge let down.  So I am starting a new blog to try to help myself get through 2011 better than I did 2010.

Good Luck to me!  Oh no, I think I may be making a New Years resolution!